It's FOR REAL...

So I am almost two weeks post op and I must say I am hanging on tight to my faith and I believe God is healing me in so many ways. This week I have had to switch antibotics twice and today we moved to antibotic shots. The doctor said I was dehydrated!!! Say what??? I wanted to crumble into a pile of mush right there. I am drinking and drinking my pouch runneth over with fluids! So I had the shot ( it's a thick med and hurt like

Hell) and went home to cry. Again, I think what did I do??? I know what I did .. I made the choice to be healthy! This isn't going to happen over night and skinny isn't going to happen over night. I will endure because He will never forsake me. This journey I chose isn't the easy way out as many say.. It's the toughest way. Holding tight to my faith and my friends and family. True friends happen at this time and I have seen who cares. Thank you to those who do. 

In all reality ....

I really wish I thought about keeping up with my journey over the last six months but today is the day I start. I am a mix of emotions. July 21, 2014 I had the gastric bypass surgery. The first day of the rest of my life. I had been through all the appointments. The mental health screenings, nutritionist appointments, SIX months of primary care visits and they all said YES she can do it! I thought YES I CAN DO IT! So I did.

Well I am day 4 post op of the surgery that will change my life. It hasn't yet. I am still in pain, running fever and gained weight in the hospital (which is normal I am told). I don't want normal I want to see the scale dropping. This blog is gonna be real. Not some pretty "oh i had the surgery and now I am perfect" story because that is not real and people need to hear the truth. NO WAY DOES THAT HAPPEN. I have been on liquids for 2 weeks and everything smells so good but it doesn't taste that way. The weight has not started coming off. Today I had the thought... " I wonder if this is reversible?" So many diets failed well I failed at. I tried atkins, weight watchers, counting calories, the cabbage soup diet, medifast and nothing worked. I would lose and gain. A mean, nasty roller coaster that life had me on. So lets get this ride started. I am in the front row with my hands up in the air waiting!!! But what makes me think it will? Is the cycle broken? Will this work? I guess I will see.

For now, make sure you soul search and truly know you want to not be able to eat bread ever again, or Olive Garden or caffeine. Make sure you want to be a cheap date cause alcohol hits your bloodstream immediately. I think i made the right choice however there is no turning back now! Let's see where this roller coaster takes me.